Week 2

We stayed for lunch today and it went really well. He liked the food which is always helpful and sat nice and ate the whole time. Skye on the other hand was constantly showing off her high pitches. My ears are ringing all the time now.

Overall today was successful. But they did a few activities he's never seen before and he was a bit unsure as they had the two groups mixed all day and he's only been there when they have been separated. So he was looking for me a bit more today, which is understandable.

None of the two girls he's been playing with where there today so he was playing with the wee boy who is his age and they were hoping would become friends with him. So the teachers were very happy to see them getting along great.

After lunch he wanted to stay and play more but it was time for us to head and hopefully he'll keep looking forward to going there tomorrow morning.

Xx

Day 4

On Friday morning we all woke up shattered. I was seriously considering phoning the nursery and tell them we couldn't make it and just stay at home and rest. Especially since I knew it would be an intense weekend with visitors and daddy home. But we managed to get ready and went down.

On Fridays it's fewer kids so they mix the age groups and Lance got to play with some of the older kids aswell. They also spent most of the time outside, which I think helped Lance as it's not as intense then. He was tired though and we went home half an hour earlier. He was ready to go and did not put up any sort of resistance. But he's not asked me once if we could go home or said that he didn't want to go, which I'm very happy about.

I'm well impressed with him this week and every day I've seen a difference in how he interacts with them all and is warming up to the other kids.

Let's hope we can continue on this note next week when we will start staying a bit longer and I will start leaving for certain periods of time.

Xx

Day 3

Today was a good day. The staff was one man short but you honestly couldn't tell. I was trying to help out when I could and ended up reading stories for 20 minutes.

Lance found a new friend today and I could hear her telling Lance how they did certain things and helping him understand. He was listening intently but I could tell he was a bit frustrated when he couldn't communicate his thoughts and feelings back to her.

We left pretty sharp today. Lance was so tired he even laid down on the ground for a wee rest when we were playing outside.

Skye was a wee trooper today. She got up at 6 and never managed another nap before we left and it was past 10 by the time I managed to put her in her pram. Totally exhausted and out like a light.

So a good day, hopefully more of those to come.

Xx

Day 2

We all woke up tired. But I noticed Lance was still exhausted from yesterday, he is usually super happy and playful in the morning. Today he woke up and everything I did was wrong and life seemed a bit harder. But he bit the bullet and fought through the two hours at nursery. Right when I said we were leaving he wanted picked up and told me he was tired and wanted to sleep.

I kept an extra eye on him today as I know when he's tired he snaps a lot quicker than usual. So a part from a few pushes and a few "NO"'s it went better than I expected.

He is not too bothered if he's not in the same room as me and he seems to feel secure with the staff already which is a big relief. The only time he asked for me was when they were dressing him to go out to play. He is very particular in how he wants everything. (socks pulled up, jeans tucked in the boots, scarf and hat on) so of course this will take a few tries before they get to know him.

I hope he starts feeling comfortable around the kids soon aswell and not so threatened. They have all been nice to him so far and they seem like a good group of kids and they are all pretty content with each other.

He seems drawn to the younger kids and he plays really well with them. In particular one wee girl who is two. They played together for the whole hour we were outside. So cute 😍.

Xx

Day 1 of nursery

It's only 1 o'clock and I'm already emotionally drained.

After a rough night with two unsettled kids we headed to Lance's nursery to start the schooling in process. Lance was excited, I was excited but nervous. He recognised the place straight away and started playing well with the kids. After a while they were 4-5 kids playing with the train tracks and he got very protective over the trains that were "his", so he started dishing out punches.

I feel almost sick and riddled with guilt and embarrassment when he does that. I hate violence and I hate that he hurts other kids. Thankfully the teacher help me tell him off and we spoke about it afterwards. It's always been the biggest struggle for me and I'm so glad they will help tackle this now.

After that incident everything went smoothly, he blended in well with the other kids and listened to the teachers. We ended the session with playing outside, which is Lance's favourite and he found two wee friends to play with.

When it was time to head he came up to me and said that he was tired but he wanted to come back tomorrow and play. What more can I ask?

After that we went to burger king for a quick lunch and he had two ✌ burgers 😱. When it was time to leave the tiredness came over him again and he had a massive meltdown in the restaurant and halfway home until he finally fell asleep.

When we were almost home a car pulled out right in front of me at a crossing and I had to slam on the breaks and steer the car into another road to avoid a collision. Of course by that point I was pretty drained already so the tears started flooding and heart was thumping. Just so thankful we didn't actually hit the car and we are all fine.

So I'm sitting blogging in the car while they are both sleeping and trying to gather some strength for the rest of the day.

Xx