Day 1 of nursery

It's only 1 o'clock and I'm already emotionally drained.

After a rough night with two unsettled kids we headed to Lance's nursery to start the schooling in process. Lance was excited, I was excited but nervous. He recognised the place straight away and started playing well with the kids. After a while they were 4-5 kids playing with the train tracks and he got very protective over the trains that were "his", so he started dishing out punches.

I feel almost sick and riddled with guilt and embarrassment when he does that. I hate violence and I hate that he hurts other kids. Thankfully the teacher help me tell him off and we spoke about it afterwards. It's always been the biggest struggle for me and I'm so glad they will help tackle this now.

After that incident everything went smoothly, he blended in well with the other kids and listened to the teachers. We ended the session with playing outside, which is Lance's favourite and he found two wee friends to play with.

When it was time to head he came up to me and said that he was tired but he wanted to come back tomorrow and play. What more can I ask?

After that we went to burger king for a quick lunch and he had two ✌ burgers 😱. When it was time to leave the tiredness came over him again and he had a massive meltdown in the restaurant and halfway home until he finally fell asleep.

When we were almost home a car pulled out right in front of me at a crossing and I had to slam on the breaks and steer the car into another road to avoid a collision. Of course by that point I was pretty drained already so the tears started flooding and heart was thumping. Just so thankful we didn't actually hit the car and we are all fine.

So I'm sitting blogging in the car while they are both sleeping and trying to gather some strength for the rest of the day.

Xx