Title: Mum

It is now a title I carry. But it has taken me a good while to get used to it.

The first few months I didn't feel like a mum, I felt like a caretaker and a hardworking one of those.

For me I first felt like a mum when Lance would come to me for comfort, cuddles and whatever he needed. When I could see him looking around and lighting up when he seen me. When he could move around by himself and come see me because he wanted to, not just because I picked him up. That's when it hit home for me.

It was difficult seeing the mums who instantly falls head over heels with their babies, while for me, I had to get used to the idea of being a mummy and the fact that I now have a child. It's been a process, a great one. But I can say that my love for Lance has grown every single day he's been in my life and I feel so lucky!

I felt like I was the only one who had experienced this and that there must be something wrong because I didn't instantly fall in love with my baby. Nobody ever talks about those feelings and I had no idea that a person close to me had gone through the same thing until I told her my story. And that made me feel alot less alone and I hope by me telling my story another mum can recognise something and stop feeling guilty.

We are all unique and everyone has a different story!

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